ashley schulz: "i can't wait

to move back." that's been my mantra about langley for the past year.

i mentioned the other week that i'm at peace with not listing our home and that sentiment hasn't changed. dancing to bon jovi (YES!) in the streak of hot sunlight on the kitchen floor, whilst chowing down on lunch from travis' favourite mug, i can't help but think that life is amazing.

so why is it that i've been looking for an escape? that i've always been wanting things to get better or be new? life's not perfect and for many reasons, i would rather not be living in chilliwack anymore. we all have something of some degree of difficulty and hardship that we're dealing with. and we're all busy and we're all overwhelmed. but why do those parts of life tend to overcome us?

not that my problems, our problems, aren't real and don't deserve to be felt - but, there are people suffering. people like me. people like you. like your family, your best friends. people. and they are barely holding on, in desperate need of water and a cup of rice. while you and i are getting up at our leisure to grab a glass of water from the brita containers in our fridges without a second thought. while i'm sitting on my bench seat, curled up into the corner of the window, slippers on my late grandmother's ottoman, lap top resting on my legs. i can hear my neighbour cutting his grass, the little birdies singing from the top of the window above me.

and i've been bitching? wanting to be somewhere else?

it's a reality check i think i'll need to give myself continually throughout the duration of my life. it's easy to lose consciousness of the fate of the whole world when we're in such a safe little bubble.

life is amazing. today, please remind yourself and those around you of that. and please, continually remind me.

ps. amongst all the dancing and eating this morning, soda and i played a game of scrabble.